This weekend I had such a difficult time coming in terms with the reality that Happiness is something that one needs to find and keep, without letting others walk all over you life and ruin it...well that might confuse some, so let me elaborate...

 

I am very happy in my life right now...I am engaged to the most wonderful person and I am getting married to him in 5 months! My career isnt exactly where I want it to be, but I cant complain, as I have a good job, which is very good experience for me and I know I can fix all this once I am an immigrant! But this weekend I was so upset and crabby and I now know that I didnt have a valid reason to be so...

 

Happiness is something that comes by and I know I have been holding on to it with my nails digging in, becoz I am so scared its going to slip out of my hands...I am being paranoid, I know, and I need to "calm down" and make an effort to ignore all those who make me upset for no good reason...even if its family...they have no right to make you feel miserable...

 

All that said, I also want to add that its my fault that I am being miserable...contradicting myself, yes, but its true...I shouldnt let anyone or anything bother me so much...I need to learn to ignore the nasty and snide remarks, jokes and comments...at the end of the day, my happiness depends on me and me only...its very bad of me trying to be the victim all the time...I dont want to be the victim, I want to be the passer-by when the troubles are pouring in...I have survived a lot of turbulent storms  in the past...I can overcome these passing grey clouds...

 

So I am going to enjoy every moment in my life, as I am a lucky person, I am going to marry a great guy, I am in Canada, always wnated to be here...and my mom is happy...I know becoz she has been smiling...

 

Summer is here and make the most of it...