Its a beautiful sunny day but then light flurries were falling as I  was walking towards my office in the morning. It felt nice to have the sun and snow on my face at the same time...It wasnt cold, but the wind was strong and chilly...Now why am I writing about the weather? Because the weather affects my mood a lot...I consider myself a sensitive artist, and my art is using words to paint a beautiful landscape.

I am sometimes a bit too emotional, to the extend of driving every one around me up the wallll!!! But then I cant help being a bit loony, because the very essence of my creativity is based on my crazy imagination and though process. The other day I was trying all day to define what loneliness means...and I came up with this...If you walk down a street and feel lonely, then try to see if there are any smiling faces in the crowd around you. If there is at least one face that smiles back at you, then you are not lonely. One doesnt need words to be consoled, all you need is a genuine smile, an innocent blush, a thoughtful gesture, or a trustworthy hand.

I saw a man on the bus today, he was sitting with two daughters, one was a teenager, she was looking out of the window, but the other daughter maybe around 8 or 9 yrs. He was talking and laughing with them and both girls looked like they were having a great time with their dad...I was jealous...I am ashamed to say this, but I was so green that I had to change my seat away from them just to get it out of my head! I am not the usual type to be jealous about things or people, but today I surprised myself...when will I ever get over this feeling?!

I miss the beach...the lashing of the waves against the gritty sand and the salty spray on my face...its a magical feeling of being one with the ocean...I can just close my eyes and reminiscence...

I have lots of work to do, but somehow I cant concentrate, I need to write all this down...Sometimes I wish I could drive out all my thoughts out of my head and just maintain a calm mind, but it just cant be done!

Ok if I dont go and do some work now, then I will feel guilty about it later, so adios amigos...